Stuff and things...

• Is it weird that I go over and just stand on my new front porch at least once every day? cause I do... and I like it, a lot. sometimes I stand in the backyard. cause I can't actually go in. it's not mine yet. but it is... mine!
  
  
• The thought of packing sucks... and by thought I mean I have yet to start! I did bring home a gazillion boxes from work today, so thats kind of a start. But I dread it... the packing part. I did hire a mover last night. and I just love him. (the owner, that is) we got to talking, he asked me about my need for more space, and I mentioned the adoption, among other things. He then told me that he is an adoptive parent. Of special needs, older kids. Which lead to a lot of talking on both our parts. As he was leaving, we shook hands, and he said "God Bless you Kristen" Never did those words from a stranger mean more to me than they did right then. Ohhh the people that cross your path in this life.... good stuff, good stuff...
  
  
• I'm excited to get rid of the things I have no use for... nothing better than a good purge during the moving process. I could never be a hoarder... I love throwing stuff away too much! Makes more room for new stuff, and justifies the need... No?
  
  
• onto a different subject... cause I'm sure you're already bored to tears with the moving stuff...  The weight loss is frustrating at the moment... or at least the scale is. I know my body has changed because my pants are falling off me... but dammit these 2lbs to get me to 40 are driving me nutty. I know the numbers aren't what matters... but I've had a glimpse at that lower number, even if only for a day, and I want it to come back... I never change the ticker up there until I see a number for at least 4 days in a row! At least it's not going up... that's the main focus.
  
  
• next: I don't love my job anymore.
  
  
• there I said it. out loud.
  
  
• I was not meant to be in a regular ed classroom. It's just not me. It's not what lead me to the special ed world. I need to be with the self contained kids. I have put in my formal request for a transfer for next year, and I'm PRAYING that I get the HS autistic class that I know is going to be opening (at least it is rumored to be). I've come to the realization, that the only time I have uttered the words "I love my job" (and actually meant it, not just said it trying to convince myself) is during the summer when I am with the autistic and cmi kids. Don't get me wrong... I did love what I used to do, but it was time to move on from that. I was done there. And this job was my ticket out. Now that I've had time to reflect and really look at my options, I want to explore this other world of special education. I know it is where I should be... and it's a really good feeling to know that!
  
  
• three weeks from today I will be on the most needed and anticipated vacation ever!!! can.not.wait.
  
  
• my bff has been going through two years of hell with her youngest daughter's health and for the first time after about a gazillion appointments at children's hospital filled with bad news, yesterday's appt. brought a glimmer of hope with some positive news. sorry for being cryptic, not my place to give details... just prayers and hope.
  
  
• did I mention I can.not.wait. to go on vacation.... imjustsayin.
  
  
• My other bff leaves for Disney this weekend for the N@tional Pop W@rner Champi0nships. The team she coaches has taken 1st place for the last 3 years, I wish them all the luck they need to keep their undefeated title. And I hope she hurries home so we can get back to normal life where I don't feel like a cheer widow!!!  Good Luck Kelly and the TRLI!!!
  
  
  That's all I got... Happy weekend <3