At a loss for words...

I have thought about getting back to the blogging world more than you know... But good grief, it's hard to form the words after being away from any real posts for so long.

I had a hard year... one where I was not comfortable in my own skin, in so many ways.

My job was not what I thought it would be, what so many had told me it would be. "it will be such a relief to be out of the ED classroom, you will love it", "It will be so not stressful and easy", "you will be so glad you made the change". Well they were all wrong. I HATED it. I never got comfortable with being in someone else's classroom, I never felt the passion or effectiveness that I felt when I was in my own classroom. I didn't like the "easiness" of it. I've never been more bored in my life. So when I started to look into other options, way back in December... the options were constantly changing. I had interviewed for what I thought would be the class of my dreams, but before that decision was made, the "interviewer" came back with a new option. One that I would have jumped at had it been available at the time. So I accepted that offer. And yesterday, I got the "official" notice that the transfer is done.

Soooooooo..... next year I will transition to a 3rd grade self contained CMI class. (for those not in the special ed world, it is generally the Down's, MR, and mild ASD kids) I can't believe I'm going to be teaching elementary school... holy crap!!! I know.... I do it every summer. But this is for the whole school year. SO different. So to say I'm nervous is an understatement. I've only known the middle school for the last 13 years... it will be a huge change. But one I am so freaking excited about, I can't stand it. I know most of my kids already as I have had them in my summer classes. So it shouldn't be too much of a hard transition for them. But the building change, co-worker change, admin change, schedule change, and general life altering effect has me shaking in my shoes!! But it's all good. I'm so ready for the change. And I'm reminded of that on a daily basis. So to say that there will be am obscene amount of money spent this summer to start up this new classroom is an understatement... Anyone got any unused elementary stuff they'd like to get rid of??? I LOVE hand-me-downs!!

On the weight loss front... I've been flirting with the 70lb mark for a few weeks. It's obnoxious. I'm so over it. But whatever... it's still moving in the right direction. And my clothes are falling off my body. But I still have 25lbs to go to goal... so I have yet to buy anything, I really need to go shopping though. But I also need new classroom supplies. So I may be in a beautiful classroom, looking a vagabond next year. Priorities people!

My parent's anniversary party was incredible....

From the sheer surprise of it....

To the absolute joy of each moment of their vow renewal...
(sorry mom, I know you"ll hate that I posted these candid photos!!!, but they soooooo capture the perfect moments of that day!)

To my dad's baby sister who helped me make this day perfect by hosting it in her home...

To the ever present Cornhole championship games...

And my favorite people present...

It was a perfect day... 

I am trying to get back here more regular... More stuff to come on the start of this very very hot summer. Two weeks left of school and two days later summer school starts... Have a good week.

~Smooches