Seriously ... 23 days left

I have never before felt so done with a school year as I do this one. I think I've officially crossed over the line and joined the "crazy" that defines my children. I have developed this blank stare that results from the asking of a question that I'm pretty damn sure I've answered about 800,000 times already this year. I can't even bring the answer to my tongue, let alone have it escape my mouth yet again. My tolerance level is right about zero, my compassion is waning.

We vote on Wednesday for a new union president... I don't even know who the opposing candidate is, but you better be damn sure I'm voting for him. Anyone has to be better than the asshat that allowed this to happen, among numerous other district issues that have been left unattended. There is no news on who our new superintendent will be, but my new VP has been decided. Not totally thrilled with the choice.. but I will keep my opinion to myself until I see her in action. I'm just glad that people will now stop asking me if I applied for the position. It's flattering that they have enough faith in me that they would want me to be their new boss after so many years as their co-worker, but I have other plans for my near future, and raising a child as a single parent and being a new administrator do not cohesively work together, IMHO. I always have the same answer... when Julia starts school, I will start my new career of administration. Until then I want to be able to give her every ounce of my energy... should she ever actually get here! As mentally exhausting (see above) as my current job is... I don't have to think about it for a second. I could do it blindfolded and gagged (me people, not the kids... although that is a great behavior management.... ahhh never mind!) and still be effective and empathetic. It's been that long, and I'm very comfortable with what I do and I'm pretty confident that mostly, I do a good job at it. So although, like I said, it's flattering, I"M NOT INTERVIEWING FOR ADMINISTRATIVE POSITIONS ANY TIME SOON.... (sorry the yelling was for my family and immediate friends).

ps.... I think a lot of my empathy left with one of my favorite students (R) two weeks ago. You'll have to look back, don't feel like finding the link... A co-worker was the reason for his departure and part of my heart left with him... but this weekend he sought out a different co-worker in his neighborhood and asked them to tell me that he is okay, he knows I didn't have a part in his leaving, ( and I think he knows the guilt I have in not being there the day the incident happened and I wasn't able to fight for him), and he misses me and is behaving out of respect for me. I heart this kid. I miss this kid. He makes me smile.

~Have a good night