- It's been a long week.... I still don't feel in the groove yet. Still waiting for the new year to settle into a routine. Between workshops, personal days, early intervention testing, and all out various craziness... I don't feel like we have settled into some sort of norm yet.
- I already had two of my boys suspended this week. They decided it would be a good idea to take off running, while out of my reach, for 25 minutes. It led to a 5 person search throughout the building... not my idea of fun. It was the masterminding of one of my tough nuts... The other fell prey to his bright idea and landed himself in a heap of trouble that he shouldn't have ever been in. I felt bad that he got caught up in the other one's shenanigans. That peer pressure is a terrible thing, more-so when your not working with a full deck.
- I had back to school night this week. I had ONE parent show up. A parent that I see on a regular basis as it is???? I have the same conversation with this parent over and over... I feel like I'm talking to the kid. She has "wiped her hands" of him (wtf??? he's your kid) and I don't know how to get through to her... therefore will never get through to the kid. No one in this family values education. They are on welfare, have no desire to be productive citizens, and still find ways to have the latest cell phones, TV's, cars.... what am I doing wrong. I can't afford the things these people possess. It irks me beyond belief.
- I went to a meeting this week with the other SpEd teachers in my district. We were given the awesome news that the district was awarded a 3 million dollar grant for SpEd programs. I was so excited. Long story short... I am ALWAYS overlooked when it comes to anything curriculum. I have to beg, borrow and steal to get the things I need. I am supposed to have everything the regular ed population has... as I am supposed to be teaching the reg. ed. curriculum as per NC.LB. I have three grade levels in my room. I never have the materials that go with those curriculum's. This grant was spent on laptops, mimeo's, smart boards, and white boards. BUT, only a certain number are allotted for each building depending on numbers... were getting TEN of each... I was informed by my principal that he will "try" to give me "something". But that he feels it will be better served in the in-class support rooms... So to say I am disappointed is an understatement. I get so much crap about the test scores of my kids... but I never get the materials that i'm supposed to have or deserve. I HATE IT... I was in such a bad mood after that conversation. It's always the same... I get nothing, but am expected to produce the "scores" they want, with outdated resources. I literally have ONE computer in my room... with no internet access. It's ridiculous. Some days I just want to say... done. over it. find someone else. my kids are suffering because they are not deemed important enough.
- TWO days this week I had NO kids for the last three periods of the day. The first day I thought is was awesome... the second, I was bored out of my mind! I need to be teaching... all day!
- My yoga class started again this week. I LOVE me some yoga... I am very bendy! And I love how freaking relaxed I am after it is over. I only wish I didn't have to get in my car and drive the 1.5 hour commute home. A glass of wine and a nap is what I would prefer when it is over!!
- I have a three day weekend this week... Happy Yom Kipp@r to my Jewish friends!! Thanks for the day off!
- I am going to see "little House on The Prairie" the musical this weekend.... so freaking excited. Did I mention, Melissa Gilb@rt is playing Mrs. Ing@lls... Thanks Kelly... I know you love me to take me to see this!!!
- I only have 12 work days until I get to hang out with my favorite girls for a weekend of relaxing and endless chit-chat, far away, in the middle of nowhere, in a beautiful house. NOTHING better!
- I only have 22 work days until I am on my family vacation... cruising the Caribbean... YAY!
- I can't wait to see my girlfriends... I miss you all SOOOO much... did I mention that?
- My Godson is rockin his first year of HS... He has scored touchdowns at every game so far... I am proud. Ohhh.... and he is doing great academically too! I know priorities...
- I am loving that there is finally something to watch on TV now that the new fall stuff is starting. But I really have no time... My DVR is full and I plan to catch up during my time off on Monday!
- fell off the wagon in my weight loss... what else is new?? I haven't gained anything, which is great, but I haven't lost either... plan to get right back on this weekend. I need to lose a whole lot and will get back to it... pronto.
- Got an email from my agency about transferring cases. My agency is not Hague accredited. They need to transfer us by Dec. 1st. They say they are working on it. I am very ambivalent about it at this point. I don't know what to believe. I know that with every ounce of my soul.... my daughter is in China. I can't fathom any other option... I need this to be true more than any other thing in my life. It encompasses every minute. of every day. of my thoughts.... I feel lost. It makes me sad. Just typing this makes me teary... It HAS to happen, I'm okay with waiting... She just needs to be there at the end.
~Have a great weekend... night all!
4 comments:
I don't feel in the swing of things either. Wednesdays are our minimum days, and the afternoons are supposed to be spent working in our rooms. Well, with the exception of the first day of school, I haven't had a Wednesday to work in my room yet. Last week it was an inservice, and this week it was BTSN and I went home before returning for the evening. I need that afternoon desperately since I no longer have the release time I did when I taught third grade. Upper grade teachers get the shaft when it comes to release time. I am sick of the inequity after this many years of teaching. So, I totally get your frustration about not getting the materials you need are entitled to. That's inexcusable!
I'm glad you've got some fun things to look forward to. They will be here before you know it.
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I had things I was going to comment about until I got to that last paragraph... then I forgot everything else. It sucks that we have to deal with this. I know what you're going through and what you're feeling. Cuz I'm there, too and I'm scared. Trying really hard to keep the faith. I do feel like it'll work itself out. It HAS to, right? We can't have been set on this path to have it fall apart after all this time. I refuse to believe it. Hang in there, babe.
PS. I'm still not sure what's going on with my agency either. But I'll let you know when I find out for sure.
That sucks that you don't get the things that you need to help the kids be successful. Sorry :o(
My agency is also NOT Hague accredited. I can relate to your stress. It sucks.
Hang in there. Our girls are in China and we will do what we have to do to make it happen!
It's been a tough start to the school year here, too. I hate that these kids are being given up on by everyone-but you. Laughed at your very bendy statement! You are going to be THRILLED once the agency transfers you. They suck. Hugs.
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