Another week in the life...

I'm running out of "catchy" titles to describe the random dumping of the thoughts from my head.... because it seems to be the theme lately. No one particular thing to talk about, rather a mess of stuff from my head that I need to just write down. So here is this weeks "stuff"!

• Today is my friday... YAY! I took the day off tomorrow to go to the Dr. to "discuss" my tonsils. I'm still not sold on the idea of having them removed, but constantly wishing for the results that would have. Anyone who knows me can attest to the sheer yuckiness that is my throat. I have a consistent sore throat... I deal with it as it has just become my normal. But, most people's normal is not having a constant need to clear their throat, nor pick yucky big white stones out of it. Sorry for the TMI, but I'm starting to see that while most people use q-tips to clean their ears... I always have one in my mouth to clean out my tonsils... NOT NORMAL. And it just seems to keep getting worse. And the 5-6 sinus infections, ear infections, and throat infections a year are just starting to really get to me. So there you have it... Let's see what this new Doc has to say... I'm all ears this time around.
  
  
• We are getting another snow storm tomorrow... Actually a "blizzard" as it has been moved to that category. I love a good snow storm... when it is during the week, and I can get in some snow days, and relax at home. But... what is it with all the weekend 24 inches of snow this year? I'm so far done with this weather and in need of some serious sunshine. If I still enjoyed skiing, I'd be a happy camper... but it's been so long since I enjoyed the rush of a powdery slope, that I'm just over the whole thing... give me a margarita on the beach, it's become the new "speed" I enjoy.
  
   
• I had a dream about "C" two nights ago. I don't know why, he hadn't been in my head that day. I do think of him all the time. I look for him on the internet, I'm always trying to see if he's okay. I don't even know if I ever mentioned, (can't find a post to link), but after that graduation day his foster mother "turned him back in" to the state. After three years of him being in her home, the judge told her she needed to make a commitment to adopt and she declined. It was all about the money for her. If she adopted, she would lose the hefty paycheck of his presence in her life. I didn't find out until that September, when on the first day of school I went to check on him. When I found out he was no longer registered in the district I called his CW and she had resigned. The new one would not give me any information about his case. He was gone, and I had no idea where. I still don't. And I think of him all the time. Does someone else love him? Is he still doing well? Does he remember how much he affected me, how much I cared? I look for him ALL the time. That letter haunts me... It was in the dream. I was in the city for some conference or something and there he was, on the street. He saw me too, I ran to him and hugged him for the longest time. We spoke briefly, he had my letter in his pocket. All of my contact information was cut out of the letter, he had been looking for me also, but the information was gone. I know that is just my subconscious mind trying to make me feel better about it (the info being gone) because "hopefully" he knows he can always contact the school. But.... again, It was a heart wrenching dream that put him back to the very front of my thoughts.
  
   
• On that note... I lost another student this week. He was done with me, as sadly, I was done trying to get through to him. I could never begin, or even try to compete with his mother. She does not like me. I equally do not like her. I do like her son, but she has filled his young thoughts with things that I cannot provide, so he is moving on. I once again give in to the fact that I cannot "help" them all. It has already made my classroom a better place.  We had a great day today, students were less tense, learning has resumed.
  
   
• I still haven't decided what to do with all those pictures But... my current thought is to scan them and make a photo book. I'm all about the photo books now that I have the girl's weekend book that T made. But her materials are so much nicer than the "free" ones from photo sites. I just need to give it up, and buy the software. I really love that book and I want more! I want all my precious photos to be forever in a place where they can be gazed at.
  
  
  
• I'm making a decision to get healthy. I said to my BFF the other day that I don't even know how I let it get to this point. I swore I never would. But I did. and it needs to move in the other direction, somehow. I'm truly tired of talking about it, thinking about it, looking at it. I constantly wonder why it has to always be such a life long struggle. I hate every second I spend thinking about it. But I need to. My entire family needs to. I need to start with some short term goals, I always go for the gusto and then fail. I need a new approach. I need to do better. So that's what I'm going try try... Just do better, think first, move slow. Stop having excuses.... I've got lots of excuses. So I'm just going to try.... can't hurt, right? And I'm going to admit my stupid, but true motivation.... My driver's license is going to expire. I will need a new one soon, and I LOVE the one I have now. Who ever says that??? LOL! but seriously people, I took the most fabulous driver's license picture ever last time. I was also about 30 lbs lighter... I don't want a new one that reflects the person I have become. It's not who I ever wanted to be again. So stupid as it is... I want to look like the "me" in that photo!
  
  
  
• Is anyone else as confused as I am over the premier of lost? As excited as I was to watch it... It made my brain hurt even more... I plan to re-watch it several times over the weekend while I am snowed in!
  
  
  
• for the record... I have no milk or bread in my house for the upcoming "blizzard". I did however stop on my way home for some wine! priorities people....
  
  
  
• My parents are leaving for another cruise tomorrow. I am so jealous. I do however plan to go "food shopping" in their house tomorrow before the storm... just cause I can! They are actually not leaving until Sunday morning, but because of tomorrow's impending storm they are going to stay near the airport so that they can actually get out of dodge... Again.... so jealous of the fact that they will be soaking up the sun next week.
  
  
  
• Going to watch the superbowl (if I can shovel out) with some friends on Sunday... who are you rooting for? I'm all about N.O. winning since they have never been there. I cannot stand PM and don't want to see that ring on his finger... Should have been my Jets... *sigh*

That's all for this week...  Have a good weekend, enjoy the game, stay safe...
XOXO