This week I will have been waiting 4 years. On paper. 5 if you count the time I spent paper-chasing to get to the LID point. There are 305 days left to get to my LID. Last year they accomplished 56 days worth of dossiers. do the math... If they stay consistent with this that leaves me with 5 and 1/2 or so more years of waiting.
So yes, I am considering my options... lots of them. It has my brain in overload, it has me feeling discouraged. Emails from my SW don't help. They are misleading and have me plain pissed off. I would share... but I am afraid to put that out there. I fear the whole "big brother" watching thing.
Why does becoming a mother have to be so hard? Some days I just want to have a big pity party for myself and ball up in the fetal position and cry. But trudge on I will. I will research every option, try every avenue. But some days the ticking clock feels like it's moving in warp speed... I feel like I'm in a race that just keeps getting longer as I go.
Will I find the finish line?
Some days I wonder...
7 comments:
I promise you will make it!!!
I am right behind you and totally get it....
I seriously think we only have about another 2 years...
I think so many people have switched that the number of days referred will get bigger..
I am here with you ..
I have considered some other options.. but I think that God always has things planned perfect.. And I know our girls are waiting on us in due time..
Love ya..
Hugz..
I am always here..
I wish I knew what to say or how to advise you. I don't think any of us from way back when could have seen the wait become what it is. I wish I could have given you my LID date 7/5/06 - surely that will come up this year.
Hang in there. You will figure something out.
i've said it before and i will say it again:
the time will come when the waiting is done.
it will.
hanging in there with you until that time comes.
You will. Wonder away if you must. But you will! =)
I agree with kitchu. Good that you are looking at options. Sending good thoughts your way.
((hugs)) The wait is unbelieveably hard and it's so frustrating when you hear from people who are fudging numbers just to make you feel better. Stinks!
You'll make it and when you look back it will be strength you'll see and it will help to make you the great mommy that you will be!
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