I've become the epitome of a slacker....

I can't believe its been a month since my last post.... and I promised to be better... but alas, life gets in the way, and here we are. I don't even know where to begin. So if I even have any readers left here comes the good, bad and (i cant really say ugly) there has been none of that.

So I'll start with the bad and get that out of the way:

• My HSG as you've read was not great. and being so wrapped up in the beginning of the new school year did not lend well to starting the whole process during this cycle. It just came too fast. And this was the good tube cycle. So i'm waiting until the Nov. cycle to start because Oct. is the bad tube cycle. It sucks, and I've cried more times than i'd like to admit, but it is what it is.... I don't have a lot of hope for this happening through IUI... I need to become more positive. I don't want to have the whole tube removal process... and that is on the horizon, if the IUI doesn't work.(my Dr. fears that the built up toxic fluid could be flowing back into my uterus, therefore causing the infertility issues) And it's not that I have any attachments to my body parts... cause I don't much care what's in there or not... but I hate the thought of yet another "procedure".
  
  
• It didn't help that 2 of my cousin's announced their pregnancies within days of each other and that procedure, and then I got the call from one of my BF's that she too is pregnant. That one probably hit the hardest, as her third is not even 1yr old yet... granted it was unexpected, and not at all planned, it still stung the most. I started the adoption process before she had #1.. and now she's due with #4. I cried. A lot. And felt very sorry for myself, and all the other bad stuff that goes with the pity party one would have.But i'm over it now and moving on...

The good:

• I freaking LOVE my new job. I love my kids, I love the new building, I love my new Principal, I love the people I work with... I have 8 kids. 4 girls and 4 boys. 2 are autistic, 1 down's, 1 blind, and 4 MD kids. So it's a pretty eclectic group with huge personalities and lots of love to share. It's been a learning curve to get settled and into a routine, but it's slowly and surely coming along and the parents seem pretty dang happy with the progress they are already making. They are so much more capable than the level of academics they were presented with in the past, and i'm enjoying pushing them to reach their best potential. They are so proud of each new accomplishment, as am I. Quite the different atmosphere after being in the ED world for so many years. There is no longer the angst I used to feel on a daily basis about the situations my previous kids were always in. This class is just full of smiles and love, coupled with the once in awhile growls of defiance, but those are comical in comparison. My 2 classroom Para's are awesome. I could not have chosen better people to work with myself. We all just work seamlessly together and that makes one very good working environment. The stories I already have to share would leave you with a smile and some laughs. I'm hoping to start regularly sharing those tidbits, even if only to document them for myself as I did with my BD class. This is a whole new chapter in a completely different book, and one I feel so privileged to be living.


• And as every "good" post should include... I have planned and booked my next vacation. I will be spending our Fall break cruising the Southern Caribbean with my family. We decided to forego the Disney Christmas this year as the last couple of years it has been unseasonably cold there and I am due for some sunshine on a tropical beach! can.not.wait.

My favorite cousin is getting  in 4 weeks. I am so excited and happy for her. Her life is changing in so many fantastic ways and I cannot wait to see her as a beautiful bride. I love a good wedding, and this one will be just that! Here we are 5 years ago at her Mom's wedding... She is getting married in the exact same place.

• I have not lost a pound in about 3 months... I know, how is that good? But seriously, in my old life I would probably have gained about 10 in that time. But I have lost a total of 76lbs in the last year and I have never in that time gained back a single lb. that in itself is awesome. I am by no means finished. I would ideally like to lose 25lbs more, but I know that it will take some hard work on my part and some serious gym time. I will do it. I know I can do it. I just need to work at it, and that I will. I've never been so comfortable and happy in my own skin as I am now. I will finish this battle...

So there ya have it... once again another "update" because i'm a slacker post... My goal is to start a humorous hump day post of things from school that make me giggle, and I want to jump on the photo posts bandwagon and start getting my camera back in action... I can't remember the last time I took a picture with an actual camera and the cell phone pics I display on FB are usually crap. So I will start carrying my camera around and taking pictures again and posting them here! 

~smooches :o)